Messaging and greetings over the phone wasn't awkward at all. Apart from using sweetening words that couples normally uses, we were able to communicate properly. Anyway, thats my thoughts while arranging for a haircut appointment. And I headed to her workplace for it.
There was an air of quietness when i stepped into the saloon. I could sense the weird looks from her colleagues when we greeted each other. It was the start of an awkward feeling that is to follow. I must first comment that it was near her store closing hours where there isn't any customers in the saloon at all, apart of me that is.
Throughout my haircut, i maintained eye-contact with my ex-girlfriend, smiling to her at times when our eyes met. She probably didn't notice this since she's concentrating on my hair but I noticed that her colleagues were all 'monitoring' our situation. Not sure whether the use of 'monitoring' is appropriate here but i guess thats the closest word i could use to describe that atmosphere.
It was only at the end of my haircut that she told me she hasn't break the news about our breakup to her colleagues. Before that, I was thinking of heading to the counter to make payment where the awkward moment got to the maximum. Since I can still be consider a friend, i was wondering that i might get a discounted rate if she were to follow me to the cashiering counter. However, when i turned around, I saw her standing besides her colleagues, talking.
I didn't know, at that particular moment, whether to walk towards the cashiering counter myself to pay the standard price, or to wait for her to come back to 'serve' me. By 'serve', i meant that "ain't you gonna send me out, like with a farewell?" That was a moment of awkwardness.
The moment ended when my ex-girlfriend came back to where i had remained seated (still wondering what to do) and i asked the question: "I should go pay now?" and that's when she told me that she hasn't break the news of our breakup to her colleagues yet.
For readers that are now confused with what I'm writing, I should clarify that for the past years that I've been going to her for haircut in her saloon, I wouldn't need to pay since they might have some sort of agreement between the hairstylist to provide 'free haircut' to their significant ones.
Knowing this, she told me "not to pay" so that it doesn't create a explanation hassle for her. And for me, I switched my mind into thinking about killing off this awkward feeling.I told her that I'm going to the bank ATM to deposit cash. I only came back to get her, which at this time she have officially knocked off, at 9pm.
I don't really know why but i guess i included a meal together after our haircut as well. In addition, i was also told to pass her all the stuffs that she had left in my house to return her. We had supper at a coffeeshop near her house, with her friend and sister. And since there were company, I thought it was just enough of greetings and catching up topics for each of them since i do know them personally as well.
At the end of the day, although i say that it's okay if there is company joining us for the meal, I must say that i was a little disappointed that we didn't get to talk more individually.
Maybe, just maybe i might wanted to find out more about our breakup as a 'debriefing' kind of chat. I don't have an definite answer as to why i felt that pinch of disappointment. Anyway, there you have it, another post of my thoughts about what happened in our first meeting after the breakup with my girlfriend.
Till we meet again, I wish you well. For now, let us all take baby steps forward to achieve our goals.
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